Oops, almost a whole year since my last post. Not good, but in other ways really good. Just going to give you guys a short update on what's been happening.

First of all, I'm back in school, studying to become a nurse's aid in psychiatry. I love it and in February I'm finally done with my high school degree which means I'll be able to start applying for a real job. Since this is the last course, everyone has to do an essay. The choices where Borderline with self-injury, neuropsychiatric problems such as autism, eating disorders or forensic psychiatry. I chose the first option and surprisingly I am handling it better than I thought I would. Some of my friends worried that writing about self-injury would trigger me or something, but so far there's been no problems at all and I'm already halfway done. I do admit that when I started writing about the self-injury I felt a twinge, but nothing more. Rather, my experience has helped me write in a way that people can understand.

The second and I think most important thing, happened today. I went to see my psychiatrist with Mum to discuss prolonging my sick leave. During that meeting we talked about my past and after a few questions and checking the chriteria she confirmed what I've thought all along. My problems with insomnia, flashbacks, depression etc, they all point to PTSD. Never thought I would be glad to get a diagnosis but there you have it. This means I can really start working my way forward again. I'm no longer afraid of the way I react to certain situations because now I know why.