The new me!

Hey everyone!
My computer is acting up again so I had to take it back to Gothenburg, in order to get it fixed. Mom was at the station to collect it but the train back to school started moving almost at once so I had no chance getting on it. Instead I went with Mom to the repair shop.

Right, get to the point! A while back I called the office in charge of name-changing, just to see  that I had my facts right and wanted to know about the process.Then I filled out the form and sent it. I have been quite nervous, but today in the car Mom handed me a letter. It was already opened and I understood at once what it was. My application had been approved! At first I was too stunned to speak. You spend a great deal of energy on a special occasion, and then it's over, you know? So now I've changed my surname to Mom's maiden namn.

I'd like to explain why I changed my name. It's quite simple. When my brother started highschool, my father applied for adding Mom's maiden name to both of us. Since we weren't of age that  didn't come through. I've always wanted to change my surname, and being me I waited for the right time. It's not that I didn't like my old name, quite the contrary. But sometimes you have to choose another path even though it feels difficult. I love my family, so I didn't do it out of spite either. The main reason is that I need to get myself a new identity. A fresh start. This term will be my last at this school, and God knows what will happen in autumn. This is simply a way for me to keep my head above the water. That's something anyone can do. Let your struggle from SI take time and learn to see how far you really have come!

Right! This is probably the longest I have gone without an update. Things have been very intense a while now but hopefully I will start to get back on my feet. They called from the clinic, yesterday I think it was, and told me that I've been assigned a real topnotch doctor. I haven't met her yet, but at least I know that things are moving forward.

In the meantime, I'll try to think of how far I've come. In July it's been two whole years since I last self-harmed! Yes, it's still tempting, but as of now I'm the one in control. And I aim to keep it that way. I won't get another tattoo, that would be too much. :P But I WILL have something to keeps me going.