Something keeps nagging at the back of my head, and I can't figure out what. Wait, that's a huge fib. I know exactly what it is. It's my abstinence making a surprise visit. It keeps doing that, and it's annoying the heck out of me. Not scaring me mind you, just annoying.
This morning while I was eating breakfast, it happened again. Just like that. I was sitting with a mug of hot chocolate, feeling quite ok, when suddenly the urge to cut washed over me without warning. As always, it started with my scars beginning to itch. I know it's phycosomatic but that doesn't stop it. After that all the other symptoms like shallow breathing, an undefined feeling of fear, and quickening pulse appeared.
Don't worry folks, I'm not giving up. It's going to take more than a spell of abstinence to make me fall again. But it would be a thousand times easier if I just could determine exactly which situations that trigger it. If you just set your mind to it, you can do anything!
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